As tends to happen when one finds themselves in a low place, they start moving up again. I have had a great deal of opportunity for introspection lately, and to correct things in my life that had gone off course. I feel now as though my lovers and myself are on our way to a better state. Things are changing in our lives, and the changes seem to be for the better.
Personally, I have freed up more time in my life to spend with my loved ones. One of the things that was really dragging me down was the feeling that I never had enough time for them. Time has a way of getting away from us in this life, but when we really stop and think about it, we have a lot more time than we realize.
Often, things seem important to us only because we have invested time into them and not because they actually benefit us or our loved ones in any way. It is difficult to separate ourselves from such things at first, but I have found that simply cutting myself off and making the thing hard to access (or in some cases someone else making it hard to access) helps me to move on. It takes a lot less time than we might expect to detach ourselves and get past the need to throw more of our time into the endless void.
In addition to having more time with my lovers, I have also reconnected with some old friends that were inadvertently cut out of my life due to lack of time. I have realized how much I have missed everyone, and it is wonderful to become a part of their lives again.
I really don’t regret anything that has happened. It has been a learning experience for me. Though it is a lesson I have learned before, I clearly needed a refresher. Now that my priorities are back in order, things are moving again. I am blessed by the patience my loved ones have for me, and I hope to test it much less in the future.
Also, I think I might even have time to revive this dormant blog of mine. Allow me some time to finish getting things back in order, and we will see what happens (of course still limited by whether I actually have anything to write about). Sorry for the long hiatus!